What is the hardest part of parenting you ask? That is easy… consistency. When you think about it the lack of consistency is probably the one thing that all of us have it common. It doesn’t matter if we are parents, employed or unemployed, young or old, being consistent is challenging, at least to start. Consistency is the root of every good behavior.

Can we address the elephant in the room? I’ve shared how four of my five children got here. There is one missing. Who is this child? When was he born? …Who is his father? These are all excellent questions; I will get into those in this post. I want to say how I see myself even as I write this. Life is funny in that as we get older and wiser, we wish to go back and do things again. I wish I could go back and talk with my younger version. To be honest, that is why I write.

Hey Family!!!! How are you? I know, I know. It has been a long time! What can I say? These “babies” get harder and harder to birth. If I’m honest, it seems like everything comes to distract me all at once when I’m trying to get it posted. Listen, I have had phenomenal sisters who have encouraged, counseled, and helped me get this chapter to you. They know who they are. To them, I say, thank you, I love you, thank God for you!!! I know God sends these sisters because when ya girl felt less than worthy, they were there. They are the essence of sisterhood, the “village”, my tribe, my Homies! So y’all ready? Get comfortable, and let’s pick you up where we left off. Let’s do this!

I’m back! Did you miss me? I missed y’all. I know, I know.. I took way too long to write this. What can I say? I felt like no one wanted to read this. I’m battling the negative self-talk daily. Let’ focus on the positive, shall we? I didn’t give up! I’m going to keep on pushing until this story is told. I appreciate you coming back to read this. I recognize you could spend your time in any number of other places, but the fact that you share some time with me is an honor. I hope you are learning who I am. I hope you are seeing me. Feel free to let me know what you think in the comments. You should know your girl is all about having a conversation. So you ready? Let’s do this!

I’m back! Did you miss me? I certainly missed you. I’ve been facing these monster emotions and licking my wounds as I relive these situations during the writing process. Can I be honest? I wanted to stop, y’all. I wanted to end this series and start something new. I have a ton of other ideas I’d like to write about…. But I can’t walk away from this. Something I believe to be The Creator is leading me to continue. Why did I want to stop, you ask? Well, because it is painful. You see, I thought I was over all of this. I thought these situations no longer had an impact on me. I was so wrong! I realized that I hadn’t leaned in and felt all the emotions and faced these situations head-on. I kinda faced it and allowed time and space to settle in, creating a facade of healing.

I even considered writing you a cute watered-down version, but that just ain’t me. I started this honest and transparent, and that is the way we will end. NO MATTER WHAT! I’m dancing through the pain! As Tyree, my son, says, “Pain is fear leaving the body!” I can do ALL the hard things! So forgive your girl for being slow. Thank you for allowing me to process the feelings and present the real me to you. I’m grateful for you. I’m grateful for your time. Thank you for sticking with me on this journey. Y’all ready to get into this? Let’s do it!

Okay… So I know I have been quiet for a minute. Why you ask, well, if I’m transparent, I would tell you that I was letting my own insecurities allow me to let my normal life activities crowd out the time and space I use to produce this. I allowed this, knowing that this IS a divine assignment from the Creator. I know that shouldn’t happen. I promised you I would bear all the scars in Part 1. Here I am fully exposed for all to see. But here is the thing… I’M BACK! I am fully committed, recharged, and ready! No matter how scared, unworthy, or insecure I feel, I WILL continue! You all bear witness me to saying, “Here I am Lord God, send me. I will obey and step out boldly in faith no matter how I feel!” So..are you ready to jump back in with me? I’m so grateful for each of you partnering with me. Let’s do this!

Hey! Welcome back! It’s been a little bit since we have been together. I trust all of you had a wonderful holiday. I had a wonderful time. I am so very grateful that you all keep coming back to spend a little time getting to know me. So…I’m gonna be transparent because that is what we are doing here. I procrastinated writing this one. It was hard to right this one. Healing is a funny thing. You may think you are over something until you have to spend time thinking about it. I am learning that even as I write, I am healing, cleansing and releasing all of that negativity as I share it with you. It feels good to get it out! I pray you are really getting to know me through this. Even more than that, I pray that you are getting something from this wonderfully blessed comedic tragedy that has been my life. If you are ready and settled let’s get into it. Here we go y’all!

Welcome back, y’all! I’m so grateful for each and every one of you. I know time is a precious commodity, and I am humbled that you share it reading my story. I hope you are really starting to see me. I’m as transparent and vulnerable as I can in hopes that something here can help you on your way. I’m am bearing my heart to you…

Well, are you ready to jump in? Okay, let’s go!

Welcome back! I am so grateful you are hanging in there with me. I’m hoping something in my story will help you. I’ve gotta be honest; seeing all of this on the page is crazy. Is it possible that one person can have so many experiences in such a short amount of time… I assure you it is ALL true.

Well, if you are ready, I am. Let’s do this!

Welcome back! Wow! Words can’t express how grateful I am that you are on this journey with me. I can say this is the hardest thing I have ever done. I am sharing the most personal parts of me. I showing you my pain, my scars, and all of my battle wounds. Why? I am sharing it because I want you to know me. I am being as transparent and truthful as I know how to be. So, with that are y’all ready to pick up our conversation? If so, let’s do it y’all.

Part 2
Hello! Welcome back. I am sincerely grateful that you are continuing on this journey with me. You and your time are valuable to me, and I don't take you for granted. Are you ready to continue our conversion? If so, let's go y'all.